Marianne Williamson - A Return To Love

 For perhaps a decade, I have been branching out, on my own, on a spirit led inquiry into the unknown, away from the comfortable pew and the conventional means of accepted religion. I have been seeking a truthful vision of what  ...God,  and truth... really are . I became obsessed with this search and read over 200 books and listened to hundreds of video's.  I had  gotten disillusioned, after 35 years, with  my conceptual view of a human like God out there somewhere in the heavens, who we were separate from, who judges us as unworthy sinners, and evil doers which  results in our response of fear and guilt. There was some vague idea of love toward us in the Jesus figure as compared to the vindictive and angry Yahweh,  but it was all an uneasy sugar coated love that depended on his grace or judgement concerning our actions and sinfulness. I was led to believe we were viewed by this god as filthy rags, a pile of dung in comparison to him and that we could never ever be good enough. We had to just believe in Jesus, as the only way to the father,  and his righteousness, along with his human blood sacrifice and we would be saved from his wrath.  Even the idea of Jesus as the sacrificial lamb who covers over our human sins, as a blood sacrifice, and atonement, did not sit right with me. I have felt at times like an heretic, a backslider, and certainly a non-conformist, who strayed from the known sanctuary of belief and home,  out into the unknown desert as a seeker after this inner truth. I have been slowly moving away from the fear-based belief system to a more love-based understanding of reality. There are two main emotions and forces that we experience as humans, fear and love. Fear is driven by the false egoic mind construct and love is driven by the true self  that resides in the heart and spirit. The choice is ours we are either moving in the direction of love or fear. Fear is the opposite of Love. What I am realizing more and more is that multitudes of people over many  generations  have been on  a similar search out in the spiritual wastelands, they are waking up from the dream created by the false ego self and coming into a realization of love in the spirit which is coming from what we have always called God. I had never heard of Marianne Williamson until recently when I came across some of her quotes to fit along with my expressions in this blog. So, I thought I would like to get a copy of her book "A return to Love" at some point and read it. I found a copy yesterday at Value Village (coincidence) . I started reading it and I can't put it down. Almost all my positive conclusions, about truth concerning spirit and God, much of what I have already expressed in this blog and certainly in my personal journal, over the years, are all being expressed in Williamson's book. Without realizing it, I had tapped into the same truth source that she did and she has revealed it so well in "A return to Love".  What I had  discovered through my personal inquiry over many years, was confirmed  for me by this author, who I was not even aware off  until a few days ago. Below is a six minute summary of quotes from her book.