Trust

It was 36 degrees C, with very high humidity. I had walked across the airport tarmac to a small 19 passenger commuter plane that would fly from Sarnia to Toronto. It was so unbearably hot as I sat in my seat . I thought the AC will be turned on soon and it will get cool. I could feel a tension coming from other passengers. I could feel an anxiety arising within the body. The mind wanted to be in control. There was a problem and it needed a solution, my mind was saying. So, there was a choice. Can the mind be trusted?, which always needs to be in control and in this case it would surly lead down a path to high anxiety.  Or, can there be a trust in the universal intelligence that is greater then 'I'?.  Sitting  there, just observing anxious  thoughts and the body's reaction to those thoughts was revealing,  the whole body and mind was tense. The hand kept moving the vent to try and get some air flow. The thoughts were saying the AC is broken , you are going to suffocate.  The plane door closed and what air flow was coming out the little vent stopped completely, as the pilot started the engines.. At this point , the thoughts were trying to get control of the situation. but an amazing thing happened . A trusting of the power that controls all of life began to take place. I began to watch the breathing of the body and the muscles all over the body  began to relax . There was an acceptance of what was , all anxiety disappeared . A trust came over this whole being and I was able to relax in this sense that all is well. I felt as if what I refer to as 'self'  was not just in this body but it was also outside the body. The plane took off and the air was flowing again but it was not working well in the extreme heat. I felt that my being was everywhere, it extended outside the aircraft. I felt a total peace. Life or death  had no meaning anymore. There was just this awesome presence of peace that passes all understanding. The thirty minute flight was over so quickly and we landed in Toronto. This was an experience of trust. It was a choice to not believe thoughts but rather to trust in the  intelligence that is greater then the little 'I 'of a separate self. There is a universal self and we are all it. Trust it and  a newly perceived world opens up. This greater sense of Self is always there but we cannot see  it clearly. When we learn to move beyond the thinking mind  and see life as it is , we realize there is no separate self , everything , everywhere is all one being.